I felt compelled to write to you Future.

I don’t know where you are, or if you even exist.

But Future here this...

I’m preparing myself for you.

I’ve been left kind of broken, and through the years of trying to piece ME back together,
the cracks still seem to be visible.

Can you look past them Future?

You see I’ve built up this wall; it’s so tall, so sturdy and it goes all the way around.

This moss infested security blanket is strong, and has been standing for some time now.

I mean, the cracks have left me quite fragile. I feel this wall is very necessary.

But behind the bricks, I long for you...Future.

I’ve had imposter’s abseil over my walls in attempts to capture the very thing I guard.

Only to be catapulted back over, leaving with a piece of me tucked away in their pocket.

Piece by piece, imposter after imposter, another piece, and then another.

Some have had the decency to throw my pieces back, isn’t that nice of them Future?

But check this...

Future, when my mind treats me with thoughts of you

This menacing smile stretches across my lips and rests there for a few seconds, the outer corners of my eyes turn up slightly and my pupils glisten.

The thought of loving you makes those butterflies in the pit of my stomach dance around to a fan fare, flapping glitter off their wings...

I want to love you so badly.

Enough to make my heart want to explode. Sending; warm, intense, electrifying sensations all over my body. Gracing my lions like a surge of energy finally released...

Like a climax of your every being.

Oh and another thing...

Future, can I hold you?

Can I serenade your insecurities with a supportive embrace, silent breaths and understanding eyes?

I’ll be that one lone cheerleader in your corner, pom-poms high cheering to your

achievements, box splitting to your success and twirling to your accomplishments.  

AY FUTURE!!!!
if you could just be patient with me, I promise I’ll never leave you hungry; I plan to feed your body, your mind, even your ego. Dissatisfaction will not become of you, believe that!

Now I’ve rambled on about what I have to offer, I bet you’re wondering what I’d need from you.

I think I’ll save that for another letter. ;)